Even the HEALER, UNRAVELS at TIMES

Each one of us EXPERIENCE'S PAIN. We have a choice we either LET IT BE as it dissolves or we SUPPRESS it... and yes even EVERY healers, coaches, therapist ... experience DEEP emotiona, grief, loss, that we have to FACE, ACCEPT to LET GO,,,

2 weeks ago, just recovering from a bout of food poisioning and other circumstances, I hadn't slept very well for a few days. I was feeling exhausted and was taking on a course that for me had some emotional challenges; a baby massage instructor course, it was FINALLY the right time.

Deep down I was a little nervous, despite the fact I am lucky to have a natural repoire with babies and children, be the eldest of 9 younger siblings, 15 nieces and nephews,...I was coming to terms with my own perceived loss of not having children of my own...Despite the fact that part of my life pupose and natural archetype is very much the NURTURER, the CAREgiver. So I was perfectly AWARE there was STUFF to be FACED.

As my great friend & teacher, David Rabone, Soul Alchemist & Healer explains... those things we dont acknowlege or face, eventually comes back to bite us, or as David would say all the S**** eventually rises to the surface.

Well it did ..and so did a lot of other S**** , if you excuse the french, did LOL. It was one of those weeks, things don't go as you hoped or planned... And yes I can say, I was not in the MOMENT, Concern for a very good friend and grief of my dying gran, I allowed my mind to RUN AWAY, my grief, exhaustion, fear..grow VERY BIG WINGS...as I try to hold on to it SUPPRESS IT

And very quickly was wrung out, MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY & PHYSICALLY, and ironically, (YES!) I turned up to take a STRESS MANAGEMENT course for CARERS.

So what happened ? WELL as we all do one way or another, physically, mentally or emotionally, I UNRAVELLED... definetly NOT what I had planned, infact before I would have seriously slated myself for what I would have seen was serious unprofessionalism. Now much older and wiser, I recognise the PERFECTION of it all, as I was given DEEP COMPASSION, SUPPORT, TLC and so much more...As a CARER myself, I was given a LISTENING EAR and, the SUPPORT & CARE I needed, gently reminded how much I needed to take care of me.

We are all human, with imperfections, we are all constantly growing, learning and evolving, we all UNRAVEL at times. Despite our PRIDE, we have to have the COURAGE to face it, not HIDE IT. We are not ROBOTS, MACHINES or some sort of SUPER HERO's or though most of us would like to BE. And we are more PERFECT than we can IMAGINE.

But when we FACE YOUR PAIN, it WILL GO...HIDE from it or ADD fuel to it and it will STAY AROUND.

It's OKAY to UNRAVEL at times, but BETTER to FACE it and let the UNRAVELLING happen as it APPEARS !